Sunday, January 1, 2017

Goals and intentions 2017

Every year I try to come up with a list of goals for things I want to accomplish. I don't like the word Resolution as they are prone to fail. With a goal even if I have met them I can judge movement based upon where I start.
So Without further delay
1st Go forward with Divorcing Amy. She moved out last year and it is time to put the nails in the coffin.

2nd Correct my paperwork, I have my passport being processed. Once I get that back, I need to fix my liscense, ideally my birth certificate but let's take it one step at a time.

3rd. Continue electrolysis 2016 was the restart of this process and I need to keep it up. I am already seeing progress despite having less than 10 hours of work done.

4th. More Bike time_ I don't care road or mountain, tour or sprint. I want to start commuting even.

5th. Start dating. I've been struggling with the idea of allowing myself to be vulnerable  and available. I long for touch, for tenderness, but have much fear of rejection or violence.

6th more burns. I did two burns last year and I would like to do others also.

7th. Medical transition, start the prep and ideally get to the finish

8th. More tattoos, piercings.

9. Another bike tour, a trip back to vegas or to Florida

10. resist struggle and fight the incoming administration,

Monday, December 8, 2014

2015 goals a work in progress

Every year I try to write up some goals for some coming year to keep up motivation and stay on a path of personal growth. This coming year will be no different
I have a couple left over from last year and  some that should easy to achieve.
1. Get  a new tattoo
2. Get my passport squared away so that is off my mind for a while.
3. Get the BMW back on the road.
4. Sell the truck, and maybe the triumphs...
5. Be Drafted in DDG (Dames? it would be nice  or )possibly Dfunk) Fuck Yeah, DAMES!!
6. Do more camping with Xi (broke up, I guess not)
7. Get better at my job, so it is a little less stressful
8. Do more yoga
9. Make time for my friends from outside of derby (Sherli, Jess, June,Frank, Aaron to name a few)
10. Fix or trash familial relationships that offer me no benefit. (If I don't allow strangers to treat me some way why am I going to allow family to do so?)

Monday, October 21, 2013

What blossom are you?

I am not a delicate flower, a rose in the queens gardens
I am not a wilting daisy, nor sunflower mindlessly following the light.
Despite many who compare me to the lotus rising from the mud, I assure all I am not that complex.
 For I am the resourceful chicory.
The rose requires beds tended with care given to soil, I need dirt just a sidewalks crackful.
The lotus is sweet and attached to its humble roots fragile in its existance.  I am one step from the tumbleweed, bittered and battered by the wild strong and spindly
The daisy and sunflower once wild, have been domesticated and made to obey. I break free in the wild, or at the least the fringes of society.  I am regarded as a something to be plucked away and destroyed, eliminated. But I still exist, just when they think they got rid of me I come back.
What they don't see in this wind worn bloom is the power to heal and nurture others despite my twisted appearance.
There are a precious few that know and value what so many view to be a cast off of nature, the simple Chicory.